I am a controversy by heart
A hurricane by blood
A torchbearer by destiny
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Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Don’t let the greatness get you down
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Living feels like a battle
It is me against people contaminated by dogma
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Every words I am about to speak is constantly being held back by fear of rejection
Every vulnerability, knowledge, and truth I share is persecuted
And at times I give up a little bit
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I honestly don’t know how to be strong
I need my soul tribe supporting me
So I can keep moving on
Writing my poetries
Pouring down my strength like rain to those in need of help
I honestly feel like I should go faster
But I don’t know how
I need my soul tribe celebrating me
So I can keep speaking my truth
So I can call on those who’s ready to love
So I can scream so loud, so YOU can hear YOUR burried pain. And cry and heal.
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I want to thrive. And not be scared anymore. Scared of those who are different from us, who are in the road to ascension.
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Flying is hard because we are the one who sew our own wings with tears and blood
And the world keeps telling us we don’t deserve OUR OWN SELF-MADE wings
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But I want to be ready. To fly.
I want the word unapologetic to translate into my spirit, my actions, my beliefs, and my influence.
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I want to raise the consciousness of humanity
I want to show how love can stop being only an idea, only a concept, and transmuted into real tangible visible force
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Teach me how to not feel heavy
Teach me to look at the heavens more than to listen to the sounds of burning fire in hell
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Teach me, that it is no longer “me against the world”.
Teach me, that it is me “loving” the world.
It is me moving mountains by the force of The Source.
Teach me that it is all, in Me.

Yogyakarta, 7 August 2019